The battle continues

SO today was the first day back on regular foods after a 4 day liquid diet to prepare for my surgery that was suppose to happen on Monday the 14th.  I am trying to watch the things that I am eating to make sure I don't gain any more weight.  I have to meet with the psychiatrist tomorrow and I am hoping he will release me for surgery.  I have discovered other effective ways to deal with my stress besides eating. I have been using deep breathing & relaxation methods. I have also been reading and starting painting.  I got a gym membership and I am going to start working with some light weights to help keep me toned and to build muscle so that when I do have surgery I will lose faster and I will not be so flabby.  I have also decided that I cannot hold on to things that are out of my control.  I have to learn to let them go.  I have been thinking about alot of the things that stress me out and there is nothing I can do about them. They are beyond my control. I have to sit back and let whatever is going to happen with everything just happen.  The things that I can control I have to learn of a more effective way to deal with them.  I have also decided to look into some self help books to see if I can come up with some more ways to continue on this path.  Hopefully I will be released and able to have my surgery in the near future. Only time will tell :)