Thursday, January 10, 2013

"You have nothing to prove to me or anyone..."

Hmmm....here is my confusion then...well let me start at the beginning.  SO I had my appointment with the psychiatrist this morning.  I was in a great and happy mood hoping that this would be the session where he says that I can go ahead with surgery. Insert MASSIVE brick wall here.  So last session the reasoning behind everything was because of the way I cope with stress in my life. So I have been making improvements and I am also back on my prozac which helps me out alot.  Well now my ADHD is being blamed. UGH!! Really?  So doc thinks it is great I am starting school but he thinks that now might be a bad time that it will add stress and that I wont be able to handle everything. But that it is good for me to go so that I am out of the house and having more adult time.  He thinks my ADHD will cause me issues with focusing in school and that all of my progress, improvements, are just a result of my ADHD kicking in and that they are only temporary.  So after hearing this I looked at doc and asked him how do I prove to you and the surgeon I am fit to have surgery? I mean holy cow I have done everything I can despite starving myself to death and I think despite what has been thrown at me I have done pretty well. DO I have a weight problem...well duh!! Is this surgery suppose to help me with it, yes.  So who knows when I will be able to have my surgery. He wants to see me back on the 24th so hopefully then I can "prove" that I am ready for this procedure. Oh wait according to him I have nothing to prove to him or anyone...but if that is the case then why not release me for surgery?  I can answer that, because I have to prove to him I am ready.

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