The uphill battle

Hello! This blog is about my trials and tribulations through my weight loss journey and how I the things I have had to go through on my way to having gastric bypass surgery.  I will start off by giving a little history on myself. My name is Selena. I will be 32 in February. I grew up in Florida running barefoot and wearing bikinis.  Growing up I was not super model skinny but I also was not over weight.  I played softball and enjoyed bike riding, skating, walking, and dancing.  I got pregnant with my first child when I was 18.  During that pregnancy I went from 135 lbs to 200 lbs.  I was able to lose most of the weight fairly quick by working out and watching what I ate.  Over a period of time I started gaining massive amounts of weight and ended up on alot of medications for high blood pressure, PCOS, and depression.  In the beginning of 2006 I weighed 250 and wore a size 22.  Now keep in mind I am only 5'3".  I went through my divorce later that year and through depression and not being happy I managed to lose a good amount of weight. I was able to wear a size 13.  In 2007 I met my now husband. I kept the weight off until I got pregnant with our son in late 2009.  After having our son I have not been able to lose the weight no matter what I have tried. I spent thousands on a personal trainer and still nothing. I finally gave in because I have now developed sleep apnea and type 2 diabetes on top of the high blood pressure and other issues.  I have decided to have weight loss surgery. I started the journey in late August of 2012.  I had to do a 3 month diet trial where in the last two months I gained 18 lbs.  This was due to stress and of course it was that time of year where all the holiday goodies are out. Well i have discovered I am a stress eater. I am admitting it. I eat when I am stressed. Due to this my surgery has been cancelled and put off until my psychiatrist thinks I am in the state of mind to control my eating.  So I am hoping that this blog will help me to control this issue. I have a gym membership now and I am also starting school on the 28th of this month. I know that this will keep me more active and less likely to "graze." I tend to eat out of boredom also which is very unhealthy. So hopefully in the near future I will be able to have my surgery and be successful with it.  I will conquer this issue and I will not let it stop me from acheiving a healthier weight and lifestyle.